17072008 ONCE IN MY LIFE

It’s over.

School exam is over.

Piano exam is over.

17^th July, 2008,

is over.

Everything is over

My life is over.

My goodness. I do not wish to blog much about it.

It all started with D major. Legato.

As I stepped in, I knew that this was it. It’s all gonna be over half an hour later.
Just do it.
I looked at him.
Pink shirt. Pink necktie. BIG eyes. I gave out a force smile.
Yea
D major was the first.

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My mind went blank when he asked for C major, root position.
Who in the world would expect a C major root position.
Scales was just okay.
Sorry mum, but I am gonna fail the rest.
1^st piece, 2^nd piece, 3^rd piece, sight reading and aural.
RM3000++ just wasted like that.
I’m very very sorry.
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
Sorry
That was what I said, too, last year.
I’m just too lazy.
I thought that I know what I’m doing.
I thought that I know how to control myself.
I thought that I’ve still got plenty of time.
I just didn’t realize that,
time flies.
And now I regret. That’s what I always do.
I really really do regret.
But what’s the use.
I can do nothing to help it anymore.
All I can is to hope that I won’t make the same mistake again.
EVER.
God please help me.
I wanna see changes.
More changes.
More changes in me.
Send more angels down to help me.
I need more.
I really do. -JessMinn