Today, many of them came back.

I turned to my right. There Mandy sat, her hair tied into a really cute ponytail. She was doing her homework. She had ALWAYS been doing her homework. Ther fading-pink of her watch stood out in the midst of all other colours surrounding her. The baby blue of her shirt which both sides of sleeve were folded up to the elbow, the sweet, light orange of the desk, the soothing white of her papers and her pencil case. Her pencil case reminded me of mine. They were close to identical. I looked at her. She did not show any respond. She was so in love with her homework. And oh, that patch of slightly faded brown colour of her hair made her look like... Mandy.

It was a hot day. Sweaty, damp, hot day. I could hear the spinning of the three dusty fans above me, their endless effort to ease our lives was evident. Being a fan must suck a lot. Apart from the soft, constant noises the fans gave out, I could hear flippings of papers ocassionally. Books. They all loved books. The quiet peace that surrounded me while everyone was busy with their homework was a moment I could really sink in and just enjoy.

But no. It did not last long. It never lasted long. Wai Kit broke the silence. His loud, firm voice must do it's job. People responeded. It was Xing Zhao. Xing Zhao said something unrelated. Didn't he always do that. Usually, when Chi Sing feels like it, he would make some really lame jokes. But today wasn't the day. I turned to my 4 o'clock, and I saw him staring deeply into his text book. From far, I couldn't see what book it was, but I was pretty sure that it was Sejarah, for, that subject, that very subject, was the only one that really, really made use of the existance of such thing called text books.

My attention was then diverted to the bright patch of light blue behind him. Oh christmas tree, oh christmas tree, the leaves are so unchanging. Happy snowman was indeed, happy. His neighbouring village was a green farm, with mountains and fences and three lambs. Three happy lambs. Their eyes smiled. They enjoyed their lives in the farm. There wasn't anything much to be happy about, but they were just happy. I don't even know why were they so happy. Do we actually need such happy faces hanging their smiles 24/7 at, literally, the back of us? Oh please. Even the sun at the beach right next to the village was also smiling. He had a sunglass covering his eyes, oh yes he did. And that's most probably because we were all too bright and it would hurt a lot to stare at us for the whole year. Hah.

A slight breeze rushed through me in the most gentle way possible. Ah, I wished it had stayed. I wish I had the chance to tell  it how much I have always loved and enjoyed it's presence, how much it could affec my life and make me a happier person by just simply, being there all day. It went away so fast.

I could hear soft but obvious whispering from behind. Chuan Jet said something to Yoeng Nam and they burst into a very akward laughter. Followed by Wei Ming's. I didn't bother to ask, knowing that they wouldn't share it with me. Sexists. Jou Jin turned around and asked what was that all about. They laughed in reply. This time their laughters went so bad that even Shar Min and Jamie turned around. Unable to hold back any more, the three girls laughed at their laughters. Mandy was having so much bond with her books that nothing else interested her, not even that increasingly laud and crazy laughters from behind. After some time, when they had managed to regain control on themselves, the boys gave Jou Jin and the girls some hints. Then, simultaneously, their heads all turned to one same direction - my 12 o'clock.

I looked back at my watch to check the time, again. This time I wasn't as dissapointed as before. My watch finally showed 10:45 and almost immediately, an imaginary bell, which was stuck in my head for long, rang. It was finally time to go!!! At that point I could already feel my soul being pulled closer and closer towards that packet of Tomyam Meehoon under my desk, with it's ridiculously alluring aroma. I had to go. I wanted to eat it right there and then, on my desk in the classroom (as how I have always did) with no teacher supervising at the moment, but then it would just seem so terribly unfair to the others, had I taken it out, unwrapped it and released the gorgeous aroma into the atmosphere. They would be devastated to find out that our souls belonged to each other and nothing could change that.

So I took the packet, stood up, and walked out from 5 Cerdik.

I need to eat.

This is how I lived for the past few days. Not specifically cookies, but yeah, I do feed myself well alright.

Oh, the love I have for myself.

Early Saturday morning.

During this awesome mini reunion

I went Facebook and saw this

THIS.

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Friday thoughts.

I'll be having my mid-term exam in two week.

The five subjects I'm taking during this semester are Introduction to IT, Financial Accounting, Principals of Management, Microeconomics and Academic English, of which 3 of them were completely new to me. Not to mention they never fail to bore me.

I have decided what I have decided. It's for the best after all. I know that by doing this it means that I'll never be able to wear scrubs for working purpose in the future. I also know that it is the right thing to do. Time will tell.

Whatever you are, be excellent.

I plan to live on this motto.

Oh, just because.

Good old times.
So good that I 'm starting to forget how good it was, given the complete opposite situation I'm submerged in now.

Aiyo I'm not depressed la I just don't want to grow up, can?

We all know the answer to that.

Where has time gone?

I find it a difficult task to catch up with time lately.

It was a totally different story a few months back then. I did not have to be at college by 8 in the morning, and most of the days I'll be free from 2PM onward - I'll even have time to work and get sufficient sleep at night. But now, I'll have to be up by 6AM and the earliest I can get back home is 6PM.

One other major difference between last semester and this semester is that I cannot even afford to get my daily dose of 9gag now. Oh the joy and fun that could never be retrieved. (I've probably missed 5000 posts on the hot page, and you know that I'm not even exaggerating when I end the figure with 0's instead of random digits)

Among the exciting things I did after I returned from Hong Kong were, in chronological order, 1) working and getting triple pay (aweeeeesomeee), 2) almost dragged myself into a medic school (I'll never get over medicine I tell you), 3) going back to Kuantan for form six registration and all (more on that later, but it's not necessary, so nah), 4) being part of the crazy crowd at Isetan's grand opening (judge not), 5) sitting for my Malaysian Studies final exam which I was only informed about exactly a week earlier (chances are I'm gonna flung), 6) skipping classes to attend the Starbucks training class which was held today, and finally getting to watch The Avengers with my colleagues (today was a good day).

So I guess this is an update. I really do intend to keep this blog as alive as it was years back then but that may not be possible for me to achieve, yet, as I'm still trying to sort out my time for things and all. Yeah I really do need to start planning ahead of time. Which is really ironic because I have to dismiss my pre-plan (which I had just now before writing this post, of what to do after I finish this post) now because it's so late right now I cannot watch the few newest episodes of Revenge which has laid inside this very laptop for weeks already. So near, yet so far.


You may find a picture of me with Mr. Einstein attached below, because E=MC² and I can't even remember what does that mean.

P.S. I am now officially a Batista! Hah.